What's on my heart today?
I've been thinking a lot about this little word that entails so much.
Yesterday, I went to my doctor to find out I'm going through this postpartum "funk". Yeah, not so cool, but hey! This post is not to focus on the actual condition, but to bring some truth to light about the one experiencing the "funk," and a few tips to go along with it .
First of all, I want to say that, YES, I felt defeated. I never thought it would happen to me. I felt weak, both physically and emotionally. I felt like I wasn't good enough as a wife and a mom. I had crying spells and I felt I was the only one. But the truth is that all those things I felt before are LIES.
When you feel that way, always remember that's NOT WHO YOU ARE. That's just the "funk" whispering in your ears. DO NOT BUY THOSE LIES! Remember who you really are, remember how much you love those around you, remember how you love to smile, how you love to live and love!
You were created to rejoice...
You have MANY reasons to rejoice. just look around...
This is not what God created you for. Just like you didn't give birth to a child with the hopes of him being unable to be happy and to receive love... You were created to be LOVED, and to ENJOY of this love poured over you.
So, yes, I had to decide whether to take pills for this or not... and I'm just going to wait a little longer. I'm trying to go all natural here and see if there are things I can do to help the situation. There are some practical things I started doing today:
-Take vitamin C. Orange Juice, tangerines, etc. Yum!
- Take vitamin D. This stuff does it all, including fighting against fatigue--very important!
-Exercising: This is tough when you have little ones. Just to find time during the day to do it is a hassle. I haven't decided how to approach this one yet, but maybe going for a walk every day, or if you have the chance of going to the gym, etc. It helps a lot!!
-Spend some time under the sun, just relaxing and taking in even more vitamin D!
- Avoid using Aspertame or Nutrasweet ( thanks for the tip, Janet! =D)
- Talk it out. Don't be ashamed of how you feel. This is not your fault.Find friends that love you and are willing to carry you through this. I had friends that stayed up till 11pm last night talking to me on skype, praying for me, seeing me cry and making me laugh! Don't be afraid to be real about this, because this is not your fault. Is not a flaw in you.
- Allow yourself to be LOVED. Sometimes, we try to be the strong woman who wants to help others, but we're not willing to let our guard down and receive. This is a good learning experience. Open up to those around you and RECEIVE all the love and the help they offer. Remember, you were created to be LOVED.
So, I've decided to wait a couple weeks to see how I'm doing, and if things don't get better (which I believe they will), I'll go back to my doc.
If you're out there and you're going through this, please don't feel alone. Send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org I want to know how you feel, I want to pray for you, I want to help you out in any way possible. I will also be posting more tips on how to walk through this season as I learn more about it.
"You will make known to me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
In Your right hand there are pleasures forever."
... thank you, Jesus, because Your Joy is my strength!
ps: If you've experienced the postpartum funk, please leave a comment with some words of encouragement for those currently going through it. Let's help each other out! =D